Grandma

things have taken an odd and sad turn in the last few days... my grandma who will be 89 in a couple weeks, was diagnosed with lung cancer.

i'm having a hard time dealing with it

just thought i'd share

Onederland, again!

I gained 3.8 lbs. last week. Well, that's what the scale told me anyway. My brain knew better! It knew that I'd had Thai food the night before and was bloated. It knew that my lack of counting that week had caused me to gain a little weight. I went back to old-school though, and counted like a mad woman (at least the stuff i needed to count) and lost all but .2 of that this week! I'm back to Onederland and 52.8 lbs gone....PHEW!

Above is the picture of Lizz and I from the Baby Fair a couple weeks ago. I think we literally have hundreds of pictures together now!

A difference in perspective

Earlier in the week, I had an experience that I wrote about where a student called me a fat ass. Granted, no, I don't know what else is going on in her life to make her so angry etc, but no matter what, behavior like that is unacceptable. Later this week, I logged into my MySpace account for the first time in a while. I'd recently added a few former students (now in high school) as "friends" so I was anticipating a few comments from them. I was not expecting what I got! 3 of the 4 girls wrote me notes saying how amazing I looked when they saw me, and how they didn't recognize me until I talked to them. These are teenage girls with no ulterior motives for complimenting me, so I really can take their compliments to heart... usually teenage girls don't compliment anyone unless they mean it!

I had to weigh in a day early this week because my WW center is closed today. I was down 1.6 so it's a total of 53 pounds now... which is still hard for me to believe. It's been fun now that there are people at work that are also on WW, and I'm slowly converting them to the core plan... very very slowly...

On Wednesday, I had to go to the pet store to get a bag of dog food, and of course dog food comes in GINORMOUS bags. The only kind our dog will eat is this organic stuff that of course was on sale: 44 lbs for the price of 40. I was proud of myself for lifting the bag and carrying it to my car, but was thinking that not 7 months ago, I had MORE than that much weight distributed on my body. It was very eye opening to think about, and motivation for me to keep going.

Hopefully I'll get my "reward" for 50 lbs and Onederland this weekend: a diamond circle pendant. Adam said he'd help pay for it, which has allowed me to really look for the one I REALLY want, instead of the one I can afford.